MY TURN!

Everyone is fine, Suwen. I'm holding up pretty well. Okay, not really, but it could be so much worse.

Hahaha. I'm into my 4th week of Paeds elective at KKH in Singapore now. It's been pretty interesting to say the least. I mean, drama aside, I've never felt so humbled and stupid in my entire life. I always knew that foreign grads were looked down upon, but experiencing it firsthand kind of drives the message home: that the local meds think we foreigners are dumb as fuck.

The worst part is, that they kind of have a reason to think that! Omg, they know soooo much. They are so pedantic in their knowledge and learning it's crazy. Like, if we're talking about Tuberous Sclerosis, you're expected to know which chromosomes are altered, and which genes are affected (TSC 1 and TSC 2 on Chromosomes 9 and 16 btw). ISN'T THAT CRAZY.

I'm like half impressed, half exasperated. I mean, there's no way in hell I can catch up to that!

*deflates*

I feel kind of hopeless, and yet I refuse to give up! Because, because, well because!

I WANT TO LEARN SOMETHING AND I WANT TO MAKE A GOOD IMPRESSION ON MY FELLOW SINGAPOREANS. What a crock of bullshit. I'm doing it all for a very selfish, very stupid reason.

One which I'll never tell. It's THAT stupid.

=.=

I can't wait for my elective to be over. But then again I wish it won't. I don't know. I'm feeling very confused right now.

OH YEAH. TOMORROW IS FREE CONE DAY @ B&J's! I'm going during lunch with 2 girls I met here (just today lol!) and again in the evening with another girl I met (but 2 weeks ago). I am going to get soooo fat.

Oh wait, I already am! D:
posted by Anonymous @ 8:45 PM